I AM LOST IN A STATE OF DESPAIR
SOMEONE PLEASE FIND ME,

SAVE ME FROM MY EMPTINESS

i really hate this bear.

Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don’t say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love

Once in a while
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the your warm embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
yah yah yah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don’t say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
oh oh

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don’t say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever

Furiou mo ryutosei mo sensei mo
Koi ni ochireba onajiyo ne

Komaku ni ataru basu doramu to
Kokochi yokutsu haihatto
Torokeru youna B-section, B-section, B-section

Anata no egao ga boku no
Kokoro ni kuritikaru hitto
Itsu no maniyara High tension, high tension, high tension

Motto chikazu ite
Gaman shinai de
Sukoshi kega wo shitatte
Maa iin djanai, Kiss & Cry

Higaï dja ishi kitte suki djanai
Uwa mezukai de sasotte kyouhan ga ii

Otousan no risutora to
Onichan to intaneto
Okaasan wa daieto, daieto, daieto

Minna yozora no pairoto
Kodoku wo iyasu munraito
Kyou wa Nissin Cup Noodle, Cup Noodle, Cup Noodle

Motto chikazu ite
Gaman shinaï de
Sukoshi kega wo shitatte
Maa iin djanai, Kiss & Cry

Don't worry baby
Kangae sugitari
Omotte bakari itatte
Sabishii djanai, Kiss & Cry

I just want to be happy
Sukoshi, sukoshi
I just want you to hold me
Watashi, yowamushi
Rainen no tanjoubi made ni
Kono mama dja nanimo kawaranaï
I just want you to hold me
Haji wo kaitatte kamawanai

Chotto kizutsu ite
Akiramenai de
Warai tobashite ganbare
Ato wa shouganai, Kiss & Cry

Motto youki dashite
Motto honki misete
Umakui kanaku tatte
Maa iin djanai, Kiss & Cry

Hikki's fav things to do: Bubble baths, drinking vinegar, hugging pillows, reading manga and Japanese literature, getting shots, and doing yoga.

I don't know her fav songs, but her favorite artists are: Aaliyah, At the Drive-in, Bela Bartok, Björk, Blink182, Blue Man Group, Bon Jovi, Brandy, Cocteau Twins, Craig David, Dr. Dre, Edith Piaf, Elvis Presley, Enigma, Erykah Badu, Freddie Mercury, Garbage, GLAY, Guns N'Roses, Guru, Incubus, Janet Jackson, Jeff Buckley, Jimi Hendrix, Joe, Kate Bush, Lauryn Hill, Led Zeppelin, Madonna, Mary J. Blige, Maxwell, Metallica, Minnie Riperton, Miles Davis, Missy Elliot, Mozart, Nine Inch Nails, No Doubt, Ozaki Yutaka, Pearl Jam, Prince, Queen, Radiohead, Sada Masashi, Slash (Guns 'n' Roses), Sting, The Beatles, The Cure, The Eagles, The Police, TLC, Trent Reznor, U2, Velvet Revolver, and Michael Jackson.

Favorite instrument: Piano

Favorite color: Blue

Favorite animal: Cat

Favorite Word: Kuso (which is 'shit' in Japanese. hehe)

Favorite Video games: Tetris and Dr. Mario (No RPGs...no Kingdom Hearts. xD)

Favorite Foods: Cheese, Tokoroten, Thai food, Vietnamese food, Nattou, Bleu Cheese, Spicy foods and vinegar (Puts vinegar on anything (in ten days she uses up a whole bottle. She sometimes just dilutes it and drinks it straight...ew.)

Favorite Movies: Being John Malkovich, Brazil, Tasogare Seibei (The Twilight Samurai), Lost Highway, π (The 1998 film), The Shawshank Redemption, The Godfather Part II, The Jerk, Unbreakable, Orlando, Amadeus, Sleepy Hollow, and Miyazaki Hayao animations

Favorite Japanese Literature: Nakagami Kenji's 'Izoku', Akutagawa Ryuunosuke's 'Rashomon', Kawabata Yasunari's 'Kanjou Soushoku' and 'Yukiguni', Mori Ougai's 'Takasebune', Natsume Souseki's 'Kokoro' and 'Kusamakura', Miyazawa Kenji's 'Shishuu ga Suki', and Mishima Yukio's 'Kinkakuji'

Favorite Western Literature: Herman Hesse's 'Siddhartha', Roald Dahl's 'Tales of the Unexpected', Shel Silverstein's 'Where the Sidewalk Ends' and 'A Light in the Attic', Edgar Allan Poe texts, Elie Wiesel's 'Night', John Berendt's 'Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil', F. Scott Fitzgerald's 'The Great Gatsby', and George Orwell's '1984'.

Favorite Album: Jeff Buckley's 'Grace'

Without your touch I've been lost without the thing I love
Without your kiss I've been dreaming of the things I miss

Your eyes, your mouth, your lips, your touch
(Your eyes), (your mouth), (your face), (your touch)

Who am I (Who am I)
Not to take (I'm not to take)
A walk with me (a walk with me), no one knows, (still)
Who am I (I need to know)
Not to take (What time it sell)
A walk with me (Will it show) let it be

Each day I miss, I remember times I use to kiss
Your mouth (Your mouth), your eyes (your eyes), your face (your face), your touch (your touch)

Who am I (Who am I)
Not to take (I'm not to take)
A walk with me (a walk with me), no one knows, (still)
Who am I (I need to know)
Not to take (What time it sell)
A walk with me (Will it show) let it be


[Touch lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
(Still I need to know), (What time it sell), (Will real it show)
(Still I need to know), (What time it sell), (Will real it show)

And I say
Who am I (Who am I)
Not to take (I'm not to take)
A walk with me (a walk with me), no one knows, (still)
Who am I (I need to know)
Not to take (What time it sell)
A walk with me (Will it show) let it be

Who am I (Who am I)
Not to take (I'm not to take)
A walk with me (a walk with me), no one knows, (still)
Who am I (I need to know)
Not to take (What time it sell)
A walk with me (Will it show) let it be

Your mouth, your eyes, your face, your touch
Your touch, your touch, your touch, your touch.

Ten to ten wo tsunagu you ni
Sen wo egaku yubi ga nazoru no wa
Watashi no kita michi soretomo ikisaki

Sen to sen wo musubu futari
Yagate minna umi ni tadoritsukihitotsu ni naru kara
Kowakunai keredo

Oh oh ikutsu mono kawa wo nagare
Wake mo kikazu ni
Ataerareta namae to tomo ni
Oh oh subete wo ukeireru nante
Shinakute ii yo
Watashitachi no itami ga imatobidatta

That's why...
That's why I chose you

Ken to ken ga butsukariau oto o
Shiru tame ni takusareta ken ja nai yo
Sonna mujun de dare wo mamoreru no

Oh oh Nando mo sugata o kaete
Watashi no mae ni maiorita anata wo
Kyou wa sagashiteru
Oh oh Doko demo ukeirerareyou to
Shinaide ii yo
Jibun rashisa to iu TSURUGI wo minna sazukatta

Oh oh Toki ni wa nagare wo kaete
Nani mo motazu ni
Atarareta namae to tomo ni
Oh oh subete wo ukeireru nante
Shinakute ii yo
Shiokaze ni mukai toritachi ga ima tobidatta

Neru mae ni iru kimiga sukoshi kagayaki
Mawariga mienai watashitachi wa
Doko ni iruno?

Oh..

Zawameki hajimeta haikei no naka ni
Mada kienai de ne
Mou nanimo kikoenai
But i can feel you breathe
Odoroku hodo kimagurena
Tengai ni sukoshi dake
Watashirashiku naikitai wo
Shiteru...

I wanna be here eternally
Kono mama mitumeateitai
I can feel you close to me
Itsumademo sobonaiwa irarenai
Kono shunkan dake wa
Zutto eien ni

Tatakai ni dekakeru mae no hitoyasumi
Anata to sukoshi itai yakusoku wa
Kondo aeta tokini
Can you feel me breathe?
Odoroku hodo dewanai
Tengai ni mo kandou
Shichau toki ga dareni datte aru...

I wanna be here eternally
Dare nimo mitsukaranai tokoro ni
I can see you are all I need
Ashita made tasuke wa iranai
Kono shunkan sae mo kitto
Just a fantasy..

I can feel you close to me
Ano basho ni kaerenaku nattemo
Ima no kimochi dake wa zutto
eien

I wanna be here eternally
I can see you're all I need
Kono shunkan dake wa
Eien ni

Koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
Chikau koto wa kore ga saigo no Heartbreak
Sakura sae kaze no naka de yurete
Yagate hana wo sakasu yo

Furidashita nastsu no ame ga
Namida no yoko wo totta su-tto
Omoide to DABUru eizou
Aki no DOROMA saihousou

Doushite onaji you na PANCHI
Nando mo kurachaun da
Soredemo mata tatakaun darou
Sore ga inochi no fushigi

Koi wo shite subete sasage
Negau koto wa kore ga saigo no Heartbreak
Sakura sae toki no naka de yurete
Yagate hana wo sakasu yo

Kurikaesu kisetsu no naka de
Kutsu ga suriheratte ku

Motto kata no chikara nuite
Kako wa dokoka ni shimatte oke
Koko kara sou tookunai darou
Mita koto mo nai keshiki

Tomaranai mune no itami koete
Motto kimi ni chikazukitai yo
Hitomawari shite wa modori
Aoi sora wo zutto tesaguri

Koi wo shite owari wo tsuge
Chikau koto wa kyou ga saishou no Good day
Sakura made kaze no naka de yurete
Sotto kimi ni te wo nobasu yo

Suki de suki de doushiyou mo nai
Sore to kore to wa kankei nai...

If you are the desert
I'll be the sea
If you ever hunger -
Hunger for me
Whatever you ask for
That's what i'll be. .

chaaha tha kya paaya hai kya ham bhii dekhiye

Here I am, lost in the light of the moon that comes through my window

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses

It's you and the roses

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow

Heal me from all this sorrow

As I let you go I will find my way when I see your eyes

Now I'm living in your afterglow

Here I am, lost in the ashes of time, but who wants tomorrow?

In between the longing to hold you again

I'm caught in your shadow, I'm losing control

My mind drifts away, we only have today

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow

Heal me from all this sorrow

As I let you go I will find my way

I will sacrifice 'til the blinding day when I see your eyes

Now I'm living in your afterglow

When the faith has gone as I let you go, as I let you go

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow

Heal me from all this sorrow

As I let you go I will find my way, I will sacrifice

Now I'm living in your afterglow

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses

It's you who is closest

Earth, sky, scenery

Here she comes back again
Men of straw, snooker hall
Words that build or destroy
Dirt, dry bones, sand and stone
Barbed wire fence cut me down

I'd like to be around
In a spiral staircase to the higher ground
And I, like a firework, explode
Roman candle lightening lights up the sky
In cracked streets trampled underfoot
Side step, sidewalk
I see you stare into the space
Have I got closer now behind the face
Oh, tell me, cherry you dance with me
Turn me around tonight
Up through the spiral staircase
To the higher ground

Slideshow of a seaside town
Coca-cola, football
Radio, radio, radio, radio, radio, radio

my god she looks so sweet.

so cute. isn't she?

The sound of air

The sound of water

The sound of sand

The sound of particles flowing above me

The sound of blood running through me

Little things gradually begin to connect

Large things, growing ever larger, begin to crumble

Becomes smaller. Disappears. Appears. Disappears.

No one is present; no one is present inside my heart

Quiet and vast

There stands a giant tree

Quiet and vast, between the sky and grassy plain it stands

Why is it that we try and show ourselves in a positive light?

Why is that we try so hard everyday to have others like us?

Why is that, when people finally like us, we want to be alone?

I want to be spoiled by someone

I want to be drawn to something soft

I want to reveal a secret to someone

I want people to see my true self

Or do I not want them to see?

I want people to see, but I am afraid of being seen

Which is why I am sad.

That is what I think.

there is this constant pain in my head and a weight in my heart. will it ever go away? and if it does, what will replace it? will sorrow replace despair? hate replace anger? maybe i will get lucky and drown in my unhappiness. die and pass on into another realm before what's left of "me" is gone forever.

Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love

Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the your warm embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
yah yah yah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
oh oh

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever