found these words while looking at someone's blog. a very beautiful girl by the name of tunks. i find them so very descriptive off the things i've felt lately. the lost, the sorrow, knowing the future is a lonely place for me.

"...and when she died...
I never thought that I could feel pain, so much
that I couldn't feel anymore
Nothing mattered...nothing was
there was nothing...
but pain"

You're so gorgeous I'll do anything
I'll kiss you from your feet
To where your head begins
You're so perfect you're so right as rain
You make me
Make me hungry again

Everything you do is irresistable
Everything you do is simply kissable
Why can't I be you?

I'll run around in circles
Til I run out of breath
I'll eat you all up
Or I'll just hug you to death
You're so wonderful
Too good to be true
You make me
Make me hungry for you

Everything you do is simply delicate
Everything you do is quite angelicate
Why can't I be you?

You turn my head when you turn around
You turn the whole world upside down
I'm smitten I'm bitten I'm hooked I'm cooked
I'm stuck like glue
You make me
Make me hungry for you

Everything you do is simply dreamy
Everything you do is quite delicious
Why can't I be you?
Why can't I be you?
Why can't I be you?

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion -
Is nothing new
Flashback - warm nights -
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after -

Sometimes you picture me -
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said -
Then you say - go slow -
I fall behind -
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look - and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you - I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows - you're wondering
If I'm OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time -

If you're lost...

You said go slow -
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds -

If you're lost...
...Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

hontou ni taisetsu na mono igai
subete sutete shimaetara
ii no ni ne
genjitsu wa tada zankoku de

sonna toki itsu datte
me o tojireba
waratte'ru kimi ga iru

aa itsu ka eien no
nemuri ni tsuku hi made
dou ka sono egao ga
taema naku aru you ni

hito wa minna kanashii kana?
wasure yuku ikimono da kedo

ai subeki mono no tame
ai o kureru mono no tame
dekiru koto

Ah deatta ano koro wa
subete ga bukiyou de
toomawari shita yo ne
kizu tsukeatta yo ne

Ah itsu ka eien no
nemuri ni tsuku hi made
dou ka sono egao ga
taema naku aru yo ni

Ah deatta ano koro wa
subete ga bukiyou de
toomawari shita kedo
tadori tsuita n da ne

does it matter that i think you are the most beautiful person in the world? do you even care? i love someone who don't even see me. pitiful am i not?

i have no family. no love, no life. i have been forced to manufacture distractions in order to live thru the day. make up lies to give my life meaning. i have nothing and they keep trying to take that nothing away from me.

"Without love, without anger, without sorrow, breath is just a clock ticking."
"It is not the message that is important, but our obedience to it."
"Without restraint, without control - emotion is chaos"
There is a disease in the heart of man. Its symptom is hate. Its symptom is anger. Its symptom is rage. Its symptom is war. The disease is human emotion.

I'VE ALWAYS LIVED MY LIFE ALONE, DESTINY FORGOTTEN.

Saigo ni kimi ga hohoende
Massugu ni sashidashita mono wa
Tada amarini kirei sugite
Koraekirezu namida afureta

Ano hi kitto futari wa
Ai ni fureta

Watashitachi wa sagashiatte
Tokini jibun o miushinatte
Yagate mitsukeatta no nara
Donna ketsumatsu ga matte ite mo

Unmei to iu igai
Hoka ni wa nai

la la la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la la

Kimi ga tabidatta ano sora ni
Yasashiku watashi o terasu hoshi ga hikatte

Soba ni ite aisuru hito
Toki o koete katachi o kaete
Futari mada minu mirai ga koko ni
Nee konnanimo nokotteru kara

Soba ni ite aisuru hito
Toki o koete katachi o kaete
Futari mada minu mirai ga koko ni
Nokotteru kara

Shinjite aisuru hito
Watashi no naka de kimi wa ikiru
Dakara kore kara saki mo zutto
Sayonara nante iwanai

Ano hi kitto futari wa
Ai ni fureta

Kaasan doushite
Sodateta mono made
Jibun de kowasanakya
Naranai hi ga kuru no?

Barabara ni natta koraaju
Suterarenai no wa
Nani mo tsunagenai te
Kimi no te tsunaida toki datte...

Be my last... Be my last...
Be my last... Be my last...
Douka kimi ga, Be my last...

Narenai doushi de
Yoku ganbatta ne
Machigatta koi wo shita kedo
Machigai de wa nakatta

Nani mo tsukamenai te
Yume miteta no wa doko made?

With my hands With my hands
With my hands With my hands
Watashi no te de Be my last...

Itsuka musubareru yori
Kon'ya ichijikan aitai

Nani mo tsunagenai te
Otona butteta no wa dare?

Be my last... Be my last...
Be my last... Be my last...
Douka kimi ga, Be my last...

I AM LOST IN A STATE OF DESPAIR
SOMEONE PLEASE FIND ME,

SAVE ME FROM MY EMPTINESS

i really hate this bear.

Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don’t say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love

Once in a while
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the your warm embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
yah yah yah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don’t say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
oh oh

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don’t say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever