without love.
breath is just a clock ticking.

i being poor
have only my dreams.
i have spread my dreams under your feet.
thread softly,
because you thread on my dreams.

i think i will just end things. as soon as i get my affairs straightened out. i can't take living like this. always wanting what i can't have. never getting anything i want. enduring one failure after another. watching and feeling myself erode away with every disappointment. my soul has taken all it can. i want to still be recognizable as human when i pass, not the empty creature i'm becoming.

to kiss her.
feel her soft, warm skin.
her lips looks so perfect,
their shape, color.

why can't i crash my car and die? that way i wouldn't have to think about her or feel for her or desire her.

sorrow wears the face off happiness

i can't get her out of my sight
i see her everywhere.
she's imbedded in my soul
i wish she would just leave.
please leave.....................................................................

it's not that i've never seen anyone as beautiful as her. i've just never seen anyone with beauty like hers. flawless beauty.