Monday, September 01, 2008

Remarks of Senator Barack Obama
"The American Promise"
Democratic National Convention
August 28, 2008
Denver, Colorado

As prepared for delivery

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To Chairman Dean and my great friend Dick Durbin; and to all my fellow citizens of this great nation;

With profound gratitude and great humility, I accept your nomination for the presidency of the United States.
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Let me express my thanks to the historic slate of candidates who accompanied me on this journey, and especially the one who traveled the farthest - a champion for working Americans and an inspiration to my daughters and to yours -- Hillary Rodham Clinton. To President Clinton, who last night made the case for change as only he can make it; to Ted Kennedy, who embodies the spirit of service; and to the next Vice President of the United States, Joe Biden, I thank you. I am grateful to finish this journey with one of the finest statesmen of our time, a man at ease with everyone from world leaders to the conductors on the Amtrak train he still takes home every night.

To the love of my life, our next First Lady, Michelle Obama, and to Sasha and Malia - I love you so much, and I'm so proud of all of you.

Four years ago, I stood before you and told you my story - of the brief union between a young man from Kenya and a young woman from Kansas who weren't well-off or well-known, but shared a belief that in America, their son could achieve whatever he put his mind to.

It is that promise that has always set this country apart - that through hard work and sacrifice, each of us can pursue our individual dreams but still come together as one American family, to ensure that the next generation can pursue their dreams as well.

That's why I stand here tonight. Because for two hundred and thirty two years, at each moment when that promise was in jeopardy, ordinary men and women - students and soldiers, farmers and teachers, nurses and janitors -- found the courage to keep it alive.

We meet at one of those defining moments - a moment when our nation is at war, our economy is in turmoil, and the American promise has been threatened once more.

Tonight, more Americans are out of work and more are working harder for less. More of you have lost your homes and even more are watching your home values plummet. More of you have cars you can't afford to drive, credit card bills you can't afford to pay, and tuition that's beyond your reach.

These challenges are not all of government's making. But the failure to respond is a direct result of a broken politics in Washington and the failed policies of George W. Bush.

America, we are better than these last eight years. We are a better country than this.

This country is more decent than one where a woman in Ohio, on the brink of retirement, finds herself one illness away from disaster after a lifetime of hard work.

This country is more generous than one where a man in Indiana has to pack up the equipment he's worked on for twenty years and watch it shipped off to China, and then chokes up as he explains how he felt like a failure when he went home to tell his family the news.

We are more compassionate than a government that lets veterans sleep on our streets and families slide into poverty; that sits on its hands while a major American city drowns before our eyes.

Tonight, I say to the American people, to Democrats and Republicans and Independents across this great land - enough! This moment - this election - is our chance to keep, in the 21st century, the American promise alive. Because next week, in Minnesota, the same party that brought you two terms of George Bush and Dick Cheney will ask this country for a third. And we are here because we love this country too much to let the next four years look like the last eight. On November 4th, we must stand up and say: "Eight is enough."

Now let there be no doubt. The Republican nominee, John McCain, has worn the uniform of our country with bravery and distinction, and for that we owe him our gratitude and respect. And next week, we'll also hear about those occasions when he's broken with his party as evidence that he can deliver the change that we need.

But the record's clear: John McCain has voted with George Bush ninety percent of the time. Senator McCain likes to talk about judgment, but really, what does it say about your judgment when you think George Bush has been right more than ninety percent of the time? I don't know about you, but I'm not ready to take a ten percent chance on change.

The truth is, on issue after issue that would make a difference in your lives - on health care and education and the economy - Senator McCain has been anything but independent. He said that our economy has made "great progress" under this President. He said that the fundamentals of the economy are strong. And when one of his chief advisors - the man who wrote his economic plan - was talking about the anxiety Americans are feeling, he said that we were just suffering from a "mental recession," and that we've become, and I quote, "a nation of whiners."

A nation of whiners? Tell that to the proud auto workers at a Michigan plant who, after they found out it was closing, kept showing up every day and working as hard as ever, because they knew there were people who counted on the brakes that they made. Tell that to the military families who shoulder their burdens silently as they watch their loved ones leave for their third or fourth or fifth tour of duty. These are not whiners. They work hard and give back and keep going without complaint. These are the Americans that I know.

Now, I don't believe that Senator McCain doesn't care what's going on in the lives of Americans. I just think he doesn't know. Why else would he define middle-class as someone making under five million dollars a year? How else could he propose hundreds of billions in tax breaks for big corporations and oil companies but not one penny of tax relief to more than one hundred million Americans? How else could he offer a health care plan that would actually tax people's benefits, or an education plan that would do nothing to help families pay for college, or a plan that would privatize Social Security and gamble your retirement?

It's not because John McCain doesn't care. It's because John McCain doesn't get it.

For over two decades, he's subscribed to that old, discredited Republican philosophy - give more and more to those with the most and hope that prosperity trickles down to everyone else. In Washington, they call this the Ownership Society, but what it really means is - you're on your own. Out of work? Tough luck. No health care? The market will fix it. Born into poverty? Pull yourself up by your own bootstraps - even if you don't have boots. You're on your own.

Well it's time for them to own their failure. It's time for us to change America.

You see, we Democrats have a very different measure of what constitutes progress in this country.

We measure progress by how many people can find a job that pays the mortgage; whether you can put a little extra money away at the end of each month so you can someday watch your child receive her college diploma. We measure progress in the 23 million new jobs that were created when Bill Clinton was President - when the average American family saw its income go up $7,500 instead of down $2,000 like it has under George Bush.

We measure the strength of our economy not by the number of billionaires we have or the profits of the Fortune 500, but by whether someone with a good idea can take a risk and start a new business, or whether the waitress who lives on tips can take a day off to look after a sick kid without losing her job - an economy that honors the dignity of work.

The fundamentals we use to measure economic strength are whether we are living up to that fundamental promise that has made this country great - a promise that is the only reason I am standing here tonight.

Because in the faces of those young veterans who come back from Iraq and Afghanistan, I see my grandfather, who signed up after Pearl Harbor, marched in Patton's Army, and was rewarded by a grateful nation with the chance to go to college on the GI Bill.

In the face of that young student who sleeps just three hours before working the night shift, I think about my mom, who raised my sister and me on her own while she worked and earned her degree; who once turned to food stamps but was still able to send us to the best schools in the country with the help of student loans and scholarships.

When I listen to another worker tell me that his factory has shut down, I remember all those men and women on the South Side of Chicago who I stood by and fought for two decades ago after the local steel plant closed.

And when I hear a woman talk about the difficulties of starting her own business, I think about my grandmother, who worked her way up from the secretarial pool to middle-management, despite years of being passed over for promotions because she was a woman. She's the one who taught me about hard work. She's the one who put off buying a new car or a new dress for herself so that I could have a better life. She poured everything she had into me. And although she can no longer travel, I know that she's watching tonight, and that tonight is her night as well.

I don't know what kind of lives John McCain thinks that celebrities lead, but this has been mine. These are my heroes. Theirs are the stories that shaped me. And it is on their behalf that I intend to win this election and keep our promise alive as President of the United States.

What is that promise?

It's a promise that says each of us has the freedom to make of our own lives what we will, but that we also have the obligation to treat each other with dignity and respect.

It's a promise that says the market should reward drive and innovation and generate growth, but that businesses should live up to their responsibilities to create American jobs, look out for American workers, and play by the rules of the road.

Ours is a promise that says government cannot solve all our problems, but what it should do is that which we cannot do for ourselves - protect us from harm and provide every child a decent education; keep our water clean and our toys safe; invest in new schools and new roads and new science and technology.

Our government should work for us, not against us. It should help us, not hurt us. It should ensure opportunity not just for those with the most money and influence, but for every American who's willing to work.

That's the promise of America - the idea that we are responsible for ourselves, but that we also rise or fall as one nation; the fundamental belief that I am my brother's keeper; I am my sister's keeper.

That's the promise we need to keep. That's the change we need right now. So let me spell out exactly what that change would mean if I am President.
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Change means a tax code that doesn't reward the lobbyists who wrote it, but the American workers and small businesses who deserve it.

Unlike John McCain, I will stop giving tax breaks to corporations that ship jobs overseas, and I will start giving them to companies that create good jobs right here in America.

I will eliminate capital gains taxes for the small businesses and the start-ups that will create the high-wage, high-tech jobs of tomorrow.

I will cut taxes - cut taxes - for 95% of all working families. Because in an economy like this, the last thing we should do is raise taxes on the middle-class.

And for the sake of our economy, our security, and the future of our planet, I will set a clear goal as President: in ten years, we will finally end our dependence on oil from the Middle East.

Washington's been talking about our oil addiction for the last thirty years, and John McCain has been there for twenty-six of them. In that time, he's said no to higher fuel-efficiency standards for cars, no to investments in renewable energy, no to renewable fuels. And today, we import triple the amount of oil as the day that Senator McCain took office.

Now is the time to end this addiction, and to understand that drilling is a stop-gap measure, not a long-term solution. Not even close.

As President, I will tap our natural gas reserves, invest in clean coal technology, and find ways to safely harness nuclear power. I'll help our auto companies re-tool, so that the fuel-efficient cars of the future are built right here in America. I'll make it easier for the American people to afford these new cars. And I'll invest 150 billion dollars over the next decade in affordable, renewable sources of energy - wind power and solar power and the next generation of biofuels; an investment that will lead to new industries and five million new jobs that pay well and can't ever be outsourced.

America, now is not the time for small plans.

Now is the time to finally meet our moral obligation to provide every child a world-class education, because it will take nothing less to compete in the global economy. Michelle and I are only here tonight because we were given a chance at an education. And I will not settle for an America where some kids don't have that chance. I'll invest in early childhood education. I'll recruit an army of new teachers, and pay them higher salaries and give them more support. And in exchange, I'll ask for higher standards and more accountability. And we will keep our promise to every young American - if you commit to serving your community or your country, we will make sure you can afford a college education.

Now is the time to finally keep the promise of affordable, accessible health care for every single American. If you have health care, my plan will lower your premiums. If you don't, you'll be able to get the same kind of coverage that members of Congress give themselves. And as someone who watched my mother argue with insurance companies while she lay in bed dying of cancer, I will make certain those companies stop discriminating against those who are sick and need care the most.

Now is the time to help families with paid sick days and better family leave, because nobody in America should have to choose between keeping their jobs and caring for a sick child or ailing parent.

Now is the time to change our bankruptcy laws, so that your pensions are protected ahead of CEO bonuses; and the time to protect Social Security for future generations.

And now is the time to keep the promise of equal pay for an equal day's work, because I want my daughters to have exactly the same opportunities as your sons.

Now, many of these plans will cost money, which is why I've laid out how I'll pay for every dime - by closing corporate loopholes and tax havens that don't help America grow. But I will also go through the federal budget, line by line, eliminating programs that no longer work and making the ones we do need work better and cost less - because we cannot meet twenty-first century challenges with a twentieth century bureaucracy.

And Democrats, we must also admit that fulfilling America's promise will require more than just money. It will require a renewed sense of responsibility from each of us to recover what John F. Kennedy called our "intellectual and moral strength." Yes, government must lead on energy independence, but each of us must do our part to make our homes and businesses more efficient. Yes, we must provide more ladders to success for young men who fall into lives of crime and despair. But we must also admit that programs alone can't replace parents; that government can't turn off the television and make a child do her homework; that fathers must take more responsibility for providing the love and guidance their children need.

Individual responsibility and mutual responsibility - that's the essence of America's promise.

And just as we keep our keep our promise to the next generation here at home, so must we keep America's promise abroad. If John McCain wants to have a debate about who has the temperament, and judgment, to serve as the next Commander-in-Chief, that's a debate I'm ready to have.

For while Senator McCain was turning his sights to Iraq just days after 9/11, I stood up and opposed this war, knowing that it would distract us from the real threats we face. When John McCain said we could just "muddle through" in Afghanistan, I argued for more resources and more troops to finish the fight against the terrorists who actually attacked us on 9/11, and made clear that we must take out Osama bin Laden and his lieutenants if we have them in our sights. John McCain likes to say that he'll follow bin Laden to the Gates of Hell - but he won't even go to the cave where he lives.

And today, as my call for a time frame to remove our troops from Iraq has been echoed by the Iraqi government and even the Bush Administration, even after we learned that Iraq has a $79 billion surplus while we're wallowing in deficits, John McCain stands alone in his stubborn refusal to end a misguided war.

That's not the judgment we need. That won't keep America safe. We need a President who can face the threats of the future, not keep grasping at the ideas of the past.

You don't defeat a terrorist network that operates in eighty countries by occupying Iraq. You don't protect Israel and deter Iran just by talking tough in Washington. You can't truly stand up for Georgia when you've strained our oldest alliances. If John McCain wants to follow George Bush with more tough talk and bad strategy, that is his choice - but it is not the change we need.

We are the party of Roosevelt. We are the party of Kennedy. So don't tell me that Democrats won't defend this country. Don't tell me that Democrats won't keep us safe. The Bush-McCain foreign policy has squandered the legacy that generations of Americans -- Democrats and Republicans - have built, and we are here to restore that legacy.

As Commander-in-Chief, I will never hesitate to defend this nation, but I will only send our troops into harm's way with a clear mission and a sacred commitment to give them the equipment they need in battle and the care and benefits they deserve when they come home.

I will end this war in Iraq responsibly, and finish the fight against al Qaeda and the Taliban in Afghanistan. I will rebuild our military to meet future conflicts. But I will also renew the tough, direct diplomacy that can prevent Iran from obtaining nuclear weapons and curb Russian aggression. I will build new partnerships to defeat the threats of the 21st century: terrorism and nuclear proliferation; poverty and genocide; climate change and disease. And I will restore our moral standing, so that America is once again that last, best hope for all who are called to the cause of freedom, who long for lives of peace, and who yearn for a better future.

These are the policies I will pursue. And in the weeks ahead, I look forward to debating them with John McCain.

But what I will not do is suggest that the Senator takes his positions for political purposes. Because one of the things that we have to change in our politics is the idea that people cannot disagree without challenging each other's character and patriotism.

The times are too serious, the stakes are too high for this same partisan playbook. So let us agree that patriotism has no party. I love this country, and so do you, and so does John McCain. The men and women who serve in our battlefields may be Democrats and Republicans and Independents, but they have fought together and bled together and some died together under the same proud flag. They have not served a Red America or a Blue America - they have served the United States of America.

So I've got news for you, John McCain. We all put our country first.

America, our work will not be easy. The challenges we face require tough choices, and Democrats as well as Republicans will need to cast off the worn-out ideas and politics of the past. For part of what has been lost these past eight years can't just be measured by lost wages or bigger trade deficits. What has also been lost is our sense of common purpose - our sense of higher purpose. And that's what we have to restore.

We may not agree on abortion, but surely we can agree on reducing the number of unwanted pregnancies in this country. The reality of gun ownership may be different for hunters in rural Ohio than for those plagued by gang-violence in Cleveland, but don't tell me we can't uphold the Second Amendment while keeping AK-47s out of the hands of criminals. I know there are differences on same-sex marriage, but surely we can agree that our gay and lesbian brothers and sisters deserve to visit the person they love in the hospital and to live lives free of discrimination. Passions fly on immigration, but I don't know anyone who benefits when a mother is separated from her infant child or an employer undercuts American wages by hiring illegal workers. This too is part of America's promise - the promise of a democracy where we can find the strength and grace to bridge divides and unite in common effort.

I know there are those who dismiss such beliefs as happy talk. They claim that our insistence on something larger, something firmer and more honest in our public life is just a Trojan Horse for higher taxes and the abandonment of traditional values. And that's to be expected. Because if you don't have any fresh ideas, then you use stale tactics to scare the voters. If you don't have a record to run on, then you paint your opponent as someone people should run from.

You make a big election about small things.

And you know what - it's worked before. Because it feeds into the cynicism we all have about government. When Washington doesn't work, all its promises seem empty. If your hopes have been dashed again and again, then it's best to stop hoping, and settle for what you already know.

I get it. I realize that I am not the likeliest candidate for this office. I don't fit the typical pedigree, and I haven't spent my career in the halls of Washington.

But I stand before you tonight because all across America something is stirring. What the nay-sayers don't understand is that this election has never been about me. It's been about you.

For eighteen long months, you have stood up, one by one, and said enough to the politics of the past. You understand that in this election, the greatest risk we can take is to try the same old politics with the same old players and expect a different result. You have shown what history teaches us - that at defining moments like this one, the change we need doesn't come from Washington. Change comes to Washington. Change happens because the American people demand it - because they rise up and insist on new ideas and new leadership, a new politics for a new time.

America, this is one of those moments.

I believe that as hard as it will be, the change we need is coming. Because I've seen it. Because I've lived it. I've seen it in Illinois, when we provided health care to more children and moved more families from welfare to work. I've seen it in Washington, when we worked across party lines to open up government and hold lobbyists more accountable, to give better care for our veterans and keep nuclear weapons out of terrorist hands.

And I've seen it in this campaign. In the young people who voted for the first time, and in those who got involved again after a very long time. In the Republicans who never thought they'd pick up a Democratic ballot, but did. I've seen it in the workers who would rather cut their hours back a day than see their friends lose their jobs, in the soldiers who re-enlist after losing a limb, in the good neighbors who take a stranger in when a hurricane strikes and the floodwaters rise.

This country of ours has more wealth than any nation, but that's not what makes us rich. We have the most powerful military on Earth, but that's not what makes us strong. Our universities and our culture are the envy of the world, but that's not what keeps the world coming to our shores.

Instead, it is that American spirit - that American promise - that pushes us forward even when the path is uncertain; that binds us together in spite of our differences; that makes us fix our eye not on what is seen, but what is unseen, that better place around the bend.

That promise is our greatest inheritance. It's a promise I make to my daughters when I tuck them in at night, and a promise that you make to yours - a promise that has led immigrants to cross oceans and pioneers to travel west; a promise that led workers to picket lines, and women to reach for the ballot.

And it is that promise that forty five years ago today, brought Americans from every corner of this land to stand together on a Mall in Washington, before Lincoln's Memorial, and hear a young preacher from Georgia speak of his dream.

The men and women who gathered there could've heard many things. They could've heard words of anger and discord. They could've been told to succumb to the fear and frustration of so many dreams deferred.

But what the people heard instead - people of every creed and color, from every walk of life - is that in America, our destiny is inextricably linked. That together, our dreams can be one.

"We cannot walk alone," the preacher cried. "And as we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall always march ahead. We cannot turn back."

America, we cannot turn back. Not with so much work to be done. Not with so many children to educate, and so many veterans to care for. Not with an economy to fix and cities to rebuild and farms to save. Not with so many families to protect and so many lives to mend. America, we cannot turn back. We cannot walk alone. At this moment, in this election, we must pledge once more to march into the future. Let us keep that promise - that American promise - and in the words of Scripture hold firmly, without wavering, to the hope that we confess.

Thank you, God Bless you, and God Bless the United States of America.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

1. IF YOU'RE CHOKING ON AN ICE CUBE, SIMPLY POUR A CUP OF BOILING WATER
DOWN YOUR THROAT. PRESTO! THE BLOCKAGE WILL INSTANTLY REMOVE ITSELF.

2. AVOID CUTTING YOURSELF WHEN SLICING VEGETABLES BY GETTING SOMEONE
ELSE TO HOLD THE VEGETABLES WHILE YOU CHOP.

3. AVOID ARGUMENTS WITH THE FEMALES ABOUT LIFTING THE TOILET SEAT - USE
THE SINK.

4. FOR HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE SUFFERERS ~ SIMPLY CUT YOURSELF AND BLEED FOR
A FEW MINUTES, THUS REDUCING THE PRESSURE ON YOUR VEINS. REMEMBER TO USE
A TIMER.

5. A MOUSE TRAP PLACED ON TOP OF YOUR ALARM CLOCK WILL PREVENT YOU FROM
ROLLING OVER AND GOING BACK TO SLEEP AFTER YOU HIT THE SNOOZE BUTTON.

6. IF YOU HAVE A BAD COUGH, TAKE A LARGE DOSE OF LAXATIVES. THEN YOU'LL
BE AFRAID TO COUGH.

7. YOU ONLY NEED TWO TOOLS IN LIFE - WD-40 AND DUCT TAPE. IF IT DOESN'T
MOVE AND SHOULD, USE THE WD-40. IF IT SHOULDN'T MOVE AND DOES, USE THE
DUCT TAPE.

8. REMEMBER - EVERYONE SEEMS NORMAL UNTIL YOU GET TO KNOW THEM.

9. IF YOU CAN'T FIX IT WITH A HAMMER, YOU'VE GOT AN ELECTRICAL
PROBLEM.

DAILY THOUGHT: SOME PEOPLE ARE LIKE SLINKIES - NOT REALLY GOOD FOR
ANYTHING, BUT THEY BRING A SMILE TO YOUR FACE WHEN PUSHED DOWN THE
STAIRS.

Monday, August 18, 2008


On a day battered with unforgiving cold rain,
There sits a couple who have reasoned everything out
In a car that now relies on the radio to pierce the silence.
There is no meaning to goodbye,
Because if we were to meet again someday,
Wouldn’t that be just wonderful?

Were the radio waves of my heart able to reach you?
It’s broadcasting from the Heart Station of sinners
And only God knows
How much I miss you.

I can’t go on without forgetting you,
That’s how it seems at least… But why is it then
That only all the good memories of us remain?

Without a doubt, though I’ve separated from you, you’re right here…
Right here at the centre of my heart.

I felt like I heard your voice back there,
Coming from the Heart Station that broadcasts at 1 in the night.
Wherever I am, there always seems to be
This beating of two pulses.

Were the radio signals of my heart able to get to you?
It broadcasts from the Heart Station of lovers,
And tonight’s requests also flood in with myriads of**
“I Love You”.

This voice of mine, were you able to hear it?
It’s broadcasting in the small hours of the night from that Heart Station…
Even now, we are still connected
On this secret frequency.

Were you able to receive these transmissions from my heart?
They come from the Heart Station of sinners
And only God knows…. this secret I keep.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Cocooned in wonder and ecstasy at once

under October’s warm evening rain

It’s light… and gentle… as its kiss dances on

eclipsing all else, it swims through the veins

The rain, pouring now, let it pour

Pour down onto the skin, untamed

This mystical moment, burned into eternity

beyond compare, such a thing could never be feigned

Stronger now, it falls, a billion liquid vows

Each beat of the heart quicker than the last

Almost as if to serenade this union, the wind suddenly howls!

Misting this beautiful tempest into the racing pulse

Hair matted against faces, brilliant smiling faces

The distant stars pulled from above, sprinkled into the eyes

Taking flight together, to such incredible places

…without further hesitation, lives entwine

Lightning, the photographer, illuminating the night

No smoke nor mirrors, nature need not ploy

As the wilderness cries and sea’s subside

the rain feels more like tears of joy

Bitterness all around…..

In those stinging words

In that blunt tone

In those cold eyes

In that thoughtlessness

In that smirk on your face

In that arrogance with friends

In that argument to satisfy your ego

In that gruffness

In the way you just walked out of my life

I have watched you grow into a Coxcomb!!!


Aint gonna help me being corny anymore

I cant take no more of this

I need to break out from this shell

I wont cower no more!

I cant be crass no more!


At last this bitterness from you has got me!

Changed me from the person i knew i was.

And now……

I spread the same Bitterness all around

Guess thats the taste everyone relishes!!

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

And So I Ask
I ask the sun
I ask the light
I ask the stars

For I am in the silence
For I am in the shadows
For I am here

Won’t you let me live inside your heart?

I ask the sun
I ask the light
I ask the stars

For I am in the dark
For I am in the cold
For I am here

Won’t you let me live inside your heart?

And so I ask

For I am here
Where I have always been
For I am here
Waiting

And I ask the sun
And I ask the light
And I ask the stars
Won’t you let me live inside your heart?

Won’t you let me live?

And so I ask

I Choose Love

So I tell you
Go ahead
Look down
Step aside
Turn around
Walk away

Do what you wish

I choose love

At times
I want to hurt you
Forget you
Disown you
Break you
But I won’t

For I choose love

And on those dark days
Were you have left me
Broken
Breathless
Frightened
Lonely
Shattered

I choose love

This broken heart
Breathless soul
Frightened child
Lonely vessel
Shattered spirit

I choose love

Oh how you live in my bones
It would be so easy
To be like you
But I won’t

For I choose love

To give love
Show love
Crave love
Accept love
Feel love

So I tell you
Go ahead
Look down
Step aside
Turn around
Walk away

I choose love

Spit
Tare
Break
Stomp

On love
On me
Do what you wish

But I choose love

Sunset


The sunset settled over the clouds and the colors of red, orange and purple escaped through the mist into my eyes. Happiness, you and i were looking at the same sunset. It may be hot tomorrow but it was worth every bit of the crap that happened because it ended on that sunset.

No matter what happened it brought me back..to you.

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Such beauty spoken by a man with a heart stolen by a Princess. My heart has been stolen since the day my lips pressed upon yours. Since the first time I wrapped my arm around you snuggled on that small ass couch watching 28 days later which I never paid attention to. All i paid attention to was your laughter, your smile and how easily we talked about everything that night. That night will forever be branded in my heart as a night of trust and morning of awakening to a new love.

A new love that grows stronger everyday I spend with you. Through all the drama..heart pounding earth-shattering making love..and the kisses that steal my heart each time..I really wouldn’t want to fight with or make love to anyone but you..the one I love.

You posses my heart, my life, my very exsistance & without you..I can’t breathe..

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“I have seen sunsets and sunrises, but nothing of your beautiful face. The pieces of my broken heart can pass through the eye of a needle. I miss you like the sun misses the flower. Like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to,the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has sent me to…Hope guides me. It gets me through the day and especially the night. The hope that after you leave my sight it will not be the last time I look upon you.”
- A Knight’s Tale-
Lord, help us to be fully alive to your holy presence. Enfold us in your love. Let our heart become one with yours. I know all man kind fall short in the glory of god, but please Lord forgive us of our daily sins so that we may be complete when faced before our father. Father I pray that these words touch the heart of at-least one wayward soul, so that they may see the true glory of your grace when we return home. Amen

Sojourn

I am unbroken
by your chastening glances
and when you found me
I was a young man
I needed guidance
but you showed me how
I never thought this was simple
but I tied the line
and brought crumbled earth on my chest
felt her tears, empty and breathless
and as the the trills and dips surrounded me
I felt the world push back
and together we sway

I have staggered along this road,

As a blind man might or a beggar.

Hungry with desire,

for what

you have revealed to me in the shadow of

the light which is

cast

from the soul of your eyes.

For that which reveals also condemns,

Penetrating the darkness of my soul,

Cutting a swath of forgiveness,

As a sword might,

For that which hurts,

also heals.

You have cut me down to shape me,

As sands do to a stone,

With sound and fury as waves,

That crash,

along the shoreline of my mind.

I have toiled through mud, storms and fury.

And with each step you have been with me.

Your eyes a transcendent,

light upon an

unknown horizon.

Your heart,

Both innocent and worthy,

Is a soul without boundaries,

As the ocean is without boundaries.

Yet cleanses,

and heals.

For you are the earth,

and the vessel that carries

all that is divine.

Because you love,

wholly and unconditionally.

And by this love,

Which is infinite in depth,

As the halo of the sun

is when it kisses the earth,

We shall survive.

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Happiness is all around us. It’s in the things that make a difference in our lives. It’s in the small people, the small things, the fine details, and the big picture.

Does anyone hear me?

Can u see the tears run down from my eyes?

Can you see sadness that fills my face cause of so much hurt and pain that fills my heart?

The pain of wanting 2 be loved and held, or a family with compassion and support for what i am or what i do theres no one.

No one to hold you when u cry.

No one to tell you they love u when u feel unloved.

No one to dry your tears and take away your hurt and pain.

NO ONE.

Seems like only hurt and pain is comin your way right now protect your heart no matter what dont get hurt again.

Looking into your eyes and I see my angel, love,compassion,and warm warmheartedness.

My angel so sweet how you tell me you love me.

My angel so nice to feel your arms around me with a warm hug.

My angel so excited when you kiss me soft and deep.

Don’t know what to say when I look at you but my angel my angle I love u so.

What else can I call u? I don’t know but my angel sounds so good right now.

Float like you do, soft flower of mine,

fall into these hungry arms

like the colours of the Spring into my mind

My sweet elixir, my breathing poem

…how I gaze, swimming in those eyes of chartreusse

unbeknownst

Sheltered by the shade, let’s carve our names into a tree, entwine

You’re already etched deep into my heart

…soft flower of mine

There’s nothing but warmth and peace inside

so melt like the colours of the Spring

…into my mind

Stained Glass Heart

Prismatic

Heart of glass

Dynamic hues dancing

Like a lava lamp of passion

So many feelings fleeting and fast

All my life reacting to a myriad of meanings

The colors never run into a blur to grayish brown

Nothing blends or shares space all are uniquely separate

Passion pain and perfection exist in their own time

There are those who can align these experiences

Shape them into stripes or checkers all

Shaped alike but not this heart

It loves and cherishes every

Moment and shade of

Awareness wanting

More Accepting

Less until you

Shine my way

Then slowly

I am free

And Explode

it fell away
you were standing naked
clothed in new scars
since I’d seen you last
its been a journey
tracing those scars
with lips and fingers
and a tired heart
where are we now?

…They had left their homes to pursue their studies…taken the toil of being all by themselves at a young age…..away from family and friends. Two strangers who longed for the same heights… Destiny crossed their paths and they were strangers no more… Days…Weeks…Years… And the twosome had become so used to each other……… They’d laugh, cry, fight, share their dreams, sip from the same coffee mug……a perfect blend to those who witnessed their pious relation…

College ended…both well placed in the same MNC…..earn well……everything rosy………..evrything lookin so ideal…..everything jus’ b’ful !!! The realisation of the incompleteness without each other was not under cover…they knew they had met to be together…. The news broke to the families………..Surprise ! Shock ! Tiff ! Questions and Answers ! Ups and Downs !……….

……………………………& it continues to leave our two bewildered and disappointed and desperate to break free from the shackles of society, caste, creed, customs and what not !!!!

Sunday, August 03, 2008

I, being, poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

Friday, August 01, 2008


The lips smile even in pain
When I remember the forgone moments
Forgone moments
For the sake of the moon’s longetivity
I obtained life from smiling
In your lap, my day day passed
In your arms, my nights passed
Today when I remember those moments
All the sorrows in the heart are forgotten

The lowering of your head on to my shoulder
Your hiding in my chest
Under my protection day and night
Your breaking like glass
Today even when I see that sight
The wilderness of the heart is destroyed

[Dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jaate hai
Beete lambhein humein jab bhi yaad aate hai]2
Beete lambheinnnnn

[Chand lambhaat ke vaaste hi sahi
Mushkura kar mili thi mujhe zindagi]2

Teri aagosh din the mere kate
Teri baaahon mein thi mere raatien kati
OoOOooOOO OO

Aaj bhi jab woh pal mujhko yaad aate hain
Dil se saare gumo ko bhoola jate hai
[Dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jaate hai
Beete lambhein humein jab bhi yaad aate hai]2

Beete lambheinnnnn

[Mere kandhein mein sar ko Jukana Tera
Mere sene mein khud ko chupana teraa]2

Aake mere panaho mein shaam-o-seher
Kanch ki trah woh tut jana tera

OoOOooOOO OO

Aaj bhi jab woh manzar nazar aate hai
Dil ki viraniyon ko mita jate hai

[Dard mein bhi yeh lab muskura jaate hai
Beet lambhein humein jab bhi yaad aate hai]2

Beete lambheinnnnn
Dard Mein .....Beete lambheinnnnn
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don't find love, let love find you.
that's why it's called falling in love,
because you don't force yourself to fall.
you just fall.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

A man enters Club ZEN in Port of Spain and orders a drink. ZEN has a new robot bartender.

The robot serves him a perfectly prepared cocktail, and then asks him: 'What's your IQ?'

The man replies '150' and the robot proceeds to make conversation about global warming factors,
quantum physics and spirituality,biomimicry, environmental interconnectedness, string theory, nano-technology, and sexual
proclivities.

The customer is very impressed and thinks, 'This is really cool.' He decides to test the robot. He walks out of ZEN, turns around, and comes back in for another drink. Again, the robot serves him the perfectly prepared drink and asks him, 'What's your IQ?' The man responds, 'about a 100.' Immediately the robot starts talking, but this time, about football, cricket, supermodels, favourite fast foods, guns and women's breasts.

Really impressed, the man leaves ZEN and decides to give the robot one more test. He heads out and returns, the robot serves him and asks, 'What's your IQ?' The man replies, 'uhh, 50, I think.' And the robot says... Real slowly, 'So............... Yuh gonna vote for Manning again?'

Monday, July 21, 2008

Deep River Poem

Two mirros faced one other.
With a sound they reflected the other.
When I meet someone who looks just like me; I think I'll make that sound.
Both children and adults like seeing themselves in the mirror.
Entranced by one's own reflection.
If you forget that it's a mirror, the silent space will overwhelm you, and you'll remember the emptiness.
I am a mirror.
I will not stretch out my hand to those who are stuck.
In the places where the light never shines.
Instead I'll try to stay with them.
Then we'll see the same view.
I know that if you can emphasize with someone's pain, then the pain can turn into something good.
The sadness doesn't go away, nor does the world change.
But seeing the world within me turned upside down was most certainly a new sight.
Everyone is looking for someone who looks like them.
No matter how much you hate yourself, you can love someone who looks like you.
There is no love in admiration or adoration.
However...
The thing people will love the most in their life is the person who resembles them most in the world.
Their child.
I am a child.
I believe I am on the right path.
So anything I cast aside or abandoned on the way, I don't think of as sacrifices.
The sky closes it's eyes.
Utada United Poem

The sound of air
The sound of water
The sound of sand
The sound of particles flowing above me
The sound of blood running through me
Little things gradually begin to connect
Large things, growing ever larger, begin to crumble
Becomes smaller. Disappears. Appears. Disappears.
No one is present; no one is present inside my heart
Quiet and vast
There stands a giant tree
Quiet and vast, between the sky and grassy plain it stands
Why is it that we try and show ourselves in a positive light?
Why is that we try so hard everyday to have others like us?
Why is that, when people finally like us, we want to be alone?
I want to be spoiled by someone
I want to be drawn to something soft
I want to reveal a secret to someone
I want people to see my true self
Or do I not want them to see?
I want people to see, but I am afraid of being seen
Which is why I am sad

It is enough for our true selves to be known only by ourselves
That is what I think.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008


Now Look What’s Happened
I’m Yours And You’re Mine
I’m Astonished, I Don’t Know What To Say
How Did The Moon Come Out In The Daytime?
Life Seems To Be Awake And Yet Lost In A Dreamworld
The Heart Is Intoxicated With Bittersweet Pangs Of Love
How Clear And Shining The Atmosphere Is
This Place We’re In Is Filled With Color
Which Spills From Our Eyes
Through Blue, Blue Clouds Filters
A Soft Light



I Was Unaware That Such Things Could Even Happen
That Love Would Flood Me This Way
This Promise, This Love Is What’s True
Every Other Bond Is False
A Soft Love-filled Tune Mingles With My Breath
Now Look What’s Happened
I’m Yours And You’re Mine
I’m Astonished, I Don’t Know What To Say
How Did The Moon Come Out In The Daytime?
Life Seems To Be Awake And Yet Lost In A Dreamworld

Thursday, July 03, 2008

You know when you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know.

I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten to make. I found the number and dialed it. A man answered, saying 'Hello.'

I politely said, 'This is Chris. Could I please speak with Robyn Carter?'

Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear, 'Get the right f *** ing number!' and the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. When I tracked down Robyn's correct number to call her, I found that I had accidentally transposed the last two digits.

After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again.

When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled, 'You're an ass hole!' and hung up.

I wrote his number down with the word 'ass hole' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer.

Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really bad day, I'd call him up and yell, 'You're an ass hole!'

It always cheered me up.

Then Caller ID was introduced, I thought my therapeutic 'ass hole' calling would have to stop. So, I called his number and said, 'Hi, this is John Smith from the telephone company. I'm calling to see if you're familiar with our Caller ID program?'

He yelled, 'NO!' and slammed down the phone.

I quickly called him back and said, 'That's because you're an ass hole!' and hung up.

One day I was at the store, getting ready to pull into a parking spot.

Some guy in a black BMW cut me off and pulled into the spot I had patiently waited for. I hit the horn and yelled that I'd been waiting for that spot, but the idiot ignored me. I noticed a 'For Sale ' sign in his back window, so I wrote down hi s number.

A couple of days later, right after calling the first ass hole (I had his number on speed dial,) I thought that I'd better call the BMW ass hole, too.

I said, 'Is this the man with the black BMW for sale?'

He said, 'Yes, it is.' I asked, 'Can you tell me where I can see it?'
He said, 'Yes, I live at 34 Oaktree Blvd, in Fairfax. It's a yellow duplex, and the car's parked right out in front.'

I asked, 'What's your name?'

He said, 'My name is Ted Hansen.'

I asked, 'When's a good time to catch you, Ted?'

He said, 'I'm home every evening after five.'

I said, 'Listen, Ted, can I tell you something?'

He said, 'Yes?'

I said, 'Ted, you're an ass hole!'

T hen I hung up, and added his number to my speed dial, too.

Now, when I had a problem, I had two ass holes to call.

Then I came up with an idea. I called ass hole #1

He said, 'Hello.'

I said, 'You're an ass hole!' (But I didn't hang up.)

He asked, 'Are you still there?'

I said, 'Yeah.'

He screamed, 'Stop calling me.'

I said, 'Make me.'

He asked, 'Who are you?'

I said, 'My name is Ted Hansen.'

He said, 'Yeah? Where do you live?'

I said, 'ass hole, I live at 34 Oaktree Blvd , in Fairfax , a yellow duplex, I have a black Beamer parked in front.'

He said, 'I' m coming over right now, Ted. And you had better start saying your prayers.'

I said, 'Yeah, like I'm really scared, ass hole,' and hung up.

Then I called ass hole #2.

He said, 'Hello?'

I said, 'Hello, ass hole.'

He yelled, 'If I ever find out who you are...'

I said, 'You'll what?'

He exclaimed, 'I'll kick your ass!'

I answered, 'Well, ass hole, here's your chance. I'm coming over right now.'

Then I hung up and immediately called the police, saying that I lived at 34 Oaktree Blvd, in Fairfax, and that I was on my way over there to kill my gay lover.

Then I called Channel 9 News about the gang war going down in Oaktree Blvd. in Fairfax.

I quickly got into my car and headed over to Fairfax.

I got there just in time to watch two ass holes beating the crap out of each other in front of six cop cars, an overhead news helicopter and surrounded by a news crew.

NOW I feel much better. Anger management really does work.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Rāvaṇa, रावण.
Dashamukha (दशमुख, The Ten-faced),
Dashagriva
(दशग्रीव, The Ten-necked)
Dashakantha (दशकण्ठ, Ten Throats).

Saturday, June 21, 2008






Unmei ni kimi wa shinjiteru
Soremade mo nanimo ka mo subete
Kaete itte shimau you na
Isshun no deai

Me ga atte shunkan ni kizuku
Unmei atte kakushin ni kawaru
Dakedo soko de hito wa ichido
Ashi ga suguru

Kokoro uzukazakari aru
Sa wo tsutaeteru koto wo
Kore wa maboroshi nanka ja nai n da to
Sotto sasayaku

Todokanai koe da to omotteta
Kanawanai yume da to omotteta
Ima boku no me no mae ni iru no wa
Negau no daredemo nai kimi*

Kono michi ni doko e tsunagatte
Donna fuu ni tsuzuite iru no ga
Souzou shita tte kentou nante
Tsugu wake mo naku

Tsuyoku aritai to omou hodo ni
Kokoro wa omou
Hangirei suru you ni yowaku natte yuku
Ki ga shite

Nakinagara kimi no na wo sakenda
Yume nara samenaide to negatta
Aa boku no me no mae ni ita no wa
Negau no daredemo nai kimi*
Kokoro uzukazakari aru
Sa wo tsutaeteru
Kore wa maboroshi nanka ja nai n da to
Sotto sasayaku

Aishiteru to iwareta katsu dake
Aisareru boku de irareta nara
Aishiteru to itta katsu dake
Aishite ita nara

Todokanai koe da to akirameta
Kanawanai yume da to akirameta
Nee boku no me no mae ni ita no wa
Hontou no kimi datta noni

Monday, June 16, 2008

Heiki na kao de uso wo tsuite
Waratte iyake ga sashite
Raku bakari shiyou to shiteita
You tell lies with a straight face
Laughing in a sick way
You tried your best to avoid tiring things

Naimononedari buruusu
Minna yasuragi wo motometeiru
Michitariteru no ni ubaiau
Ai no kage wo otteiru
Feeling blue over asking so much
Everyone is seeking for peace
You’re struggling for more, but you’ve had enough
Now you’re just chasing after the shadow of love

Taikutsu na mainichi ga kyuu ni kagayakidashita
Anata ga arawareta ano hi kara
Kodoku demo tsurakute mo heiki da to omoeta
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
My boring daily life has suddenly begun to shine
Since the day you appeared
Now I can think that I’m all right even when I’m lonely or in pain
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Yameru toki mo sukoyaka naru toki mo
Arashi no hi mo hare no hi mo tomoni ayumou
Through sick times and healthy times,
On stormy days and sunny days, let’s walk together

I’m gonna tell you the truth
Hitoshirezu tsurai michi wo erabu
Watashi wo ouen shite kureru
Anata dake wo tomo to yobu
I’m gonna tell you the truth
I chose a secret painful path
And you came to support me
You’re the only one I can call a friend

Tsuyogari ya yokubari ga muimi ninarimashita
Anata ni ai sareta ano hi kara
Jiyuu demo yoyuu demo hitori ja munashii wa
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
Fake displays of strength and being greedy have become meaningless
Since the day you loved me
Even when I’m free and have inner strength, it’s pointless when I’m alone
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Oh mou sukoshi da yo
Don’t you give up
Oh misute nai zettaini
Oh Just a little more
Don’t you give up
Oh I’ll never abandon you

Zankoku na genjitsu ga futari wo hikisakeba
Yori issou tsuyoku hikare au
Ikurademo ikurademo ganbareru ki ga shita
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
If this cruel reality tries to tear us apart
It’ll just bring us closer than ever
Somehow, I have a feeling that we’ll be able to do our best
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Arifureta nichijou ga kyuu ni kagayaki dashita
Kokoro wo ubawareta ano hi kara
Kodoku demo tsurakutemo heiki da to omoeta
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
My ordinary life has suddenly begun to shine
Since the day you stole my heart
I thought I could deal with loneliness and pain
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
Hitori ni sasenai
Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
Don’t leave me alone

Saturday, June 14, 2008

i'm from the future and i came all the way back in time to tell you that 100 yrs from now we're still i love.
the reason's i love you, can't be seen in the mirror.

Saturday, May 31, 2008


And in that hazy moment, between asleep and awake, my life will make sense. It won’t be so broken, or meaningless, anymore.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Put my life back on its course and remove all doubt from my soul
You've left me here with false hope and now you sit back
And you watch me die tear me down with my undying breath
I risk everything obey the truth in this I trust in you stripped from shame
Without him all is lost reclaim my soul bring me new life
I'm not alone, free my soul here's my heart with this life I hold
You in condemned for all to unveil what you've become and
How you brought me down bow your head

Friday, May 16, 2008

I got a revelation about life! hahaha I can think of life as a S&F puzzle... Looking @ it in the beginning, everything looks jumbled, mixed up, no order or understanding... & yet we're given a list of words to find, a list of things to fulfill, in the order of which life means it to be. Sometimes finding what we're looking for is easy... & sometimes, no matter how much we search, we just can't find it! So we think 'Maybe it's not there'... but it's there alright! Amongst all the apparent confusion & randomness, it's there right out before our eyes, yet we can't see it. So we skip it over... move on to something else in life, ignore the feat we couldn't accomplish thinking its a lost cause... When we reach the end of the list & we've ticked off 'school' 'marriage' 'job' 'child' 'icecream' 'hurt' 'pain' 'loss' etc we may think to ourselves ... 'there is just no happiness' :( But if we look closer... its there.... its meshed into & in between; the 'h' in hurt... the 'p' in pain ... the 's' in loss... It's there... but sometimes it's part of something we never thought it could be... it was there all along. We just have to find it!

Friday, May 09, 2008

Fight the blues- Translation



We fight the blues

When you worry about things that makes your enemy happy

Not only man but also woman must be tough

I let you know some good things:

“Luck comes to happy homes “

All women are actresses

They pretend to be weak, but very strong actually

Nevertheless, they want to be protected

We fight the blues

I sometimes give in depression

I am free to shed my tears

We fight the blues

When you worry about things that makes your enemy happy

Not only man but also woman must be tough

You can’t buy it, you can’t see it

It is rental toughness

Everybody puts great pressure on me

But I have to keep trying

We fight the blues

When you feel bad, just take deep breathe

Tears I held back are a part of me

I hate to lose

I’ll make you down

A gong for fight rings tonight

We fight the blues

I sometimes give in depression

I am free to shed my tears

We fight the blues

When you worry about things that makes your enemy happy

Not only man but also woman must be tough

Celebrate: Translation

The blue night
Is here for us

Don’t read deeply into things
Just enjoy the art of life

Mister DJ, this song’s tune is great
Give me more, Give me more more
Sexy Lady, that backless dress suits you
You’re number one!

Celebrate, bathe in the light
If you leap into the green sea, you can get used to anything
Celebrate, open a bottle of Don Perignon
If you’re affected as far as your lungs by cold, that is the feeling of a queen

The beast with gentle eyes awakens

Mister DJ, this song’s tune is great
Give me more, Give me more more
Sexy Lady, that backless dress suits you
You’re number one!

Celebrate, from a hill where the moon can be seen
Tonight, two people exchange vows, A secret wedding
Celebrate, come this way
Because I understand what it is to always cry alone

Stop time

Celebrate, bathe in the light
If you leap into the green sea, you can get used to anything
Celebrate, open a bottle of Don Perignon
If you’re affected as far as your lungs by cold, that is the feeling of a queen

Ah I love the way
You make me feel the music
It’s mysterious isn’t it, I am unable to touch it, yet I feel it

Tuesday, May 06, 2008


Someday we'll run away, so far away, love,
Until this weight just dissipates
You said, but
The pain grows deeper and the distance wider
It's getting harder
But my love grows stronger

* Do I really know kimi no koto Darling?
matteru matteru no Calling
Do I really know kimi no koto Darling?
matteru matteru no Calling

I can't help but fall again and again

When all I have is a tired smile to give
Should I set you free or remain a burden?
The loneliness,
My love I cannot protect
nee how much longer
Can I pretend I'm stronger?

Have you ever known kodoku na no Darling?
wakatteru no wakatteru no Longing
Have you ever known kodoku na no Darling?
wakatteru no wakatteru no Longing

But despite it all I fall and I fall
But despite it all I fall and I fall


I can't help but fall again and again
But I can't help but fall again and again

Sunday, May 04, 2008


Do you believe in fate --
A momentary encounter
That changes everything in your life
Before that?

We notice it the moment our eyes meet someone's
We come to feel it sure in contacting with him or her
But then once
We feel weak in the knees

The wind strokes my cheeks and makes me feel real
Whispering softly that this is not an illusion at all

I've been thinking that I couldn't reach your voice
I've been thinking that this dream wouldn't come true
But the person before my eyes is
You see? No one else but you

Where does this road lead to
And how does it continue?
Even if I imagine them
It's of course that I have no clue

I feel the more I wish to be strong
The weaker my heart becomes in inverse proportion

I shouted your name in tears
I wished I wouldn't wake up, if it were a dream
Ah, the person before my eyes was
You see? No one else but you



If only I had deserved your love
As many as the times you said you loved me
If only I had loved you
As many as the times I said I loved you

I gave up, thinking that I couldn't reach your voice
I gave up, thinking that this dream wouldn't come true
You see? Though the person before my eyes was
The real you

Saturday, May 03, 2008

42402 Philips D4S 4100K 3800lm watts mercury-freely yellowish-warm
42402 V269 Philips D4S 5800K 3300lm mercury-freely snow white
42406 V356-P2 Philips XenEco D4S 4100K 35W P32d-2 3800lm E-permission, mercury-freely yellowish-warm watts

53550 GE D2S Blue 35W P32d-2 5100K 2800lm watts with pink note
53560 GE D2S Superblue 35W P32d-2 10000K 1400lm light blue with Grünstich
53570 GE D2R Blue 35W P32d-3 5100K 2800lm watts with pink note
53580 GE D2R Superblue 35W P32d-3 10000K 1400lm light blue with Grünstich

62301 Osram Xenstar D-HC2S 35W 5400K D2S D-HC high color burner, very neutral white and only lamp without color pass, optically like xenon into the early 90ern as it on the market, is not any longer manufactured, residual item came available (email at author)
62305 Osram Xenarc electronics D-HC1S 35W 5400K D1S best white (unbunt), whiter and more brightly than Ultinon, no yellow or red pass, less red salts in the discharge tube as Ultinon, optically like xenon into the early 90ern than it on the market, is not any longer manufactured, residual item came available (email at author), like 62301 only in D1S Xenarc watts
66040 Osram D2S 4150K 3200lm E-permission halogeneous-yellow Xenarc electronics 35W watts
66042 Osram D1S 4150K 3200lm E-permission halogeneous-yellow Xenarc electronics 35W watts
66043 Osram D1S 4150K 3200lm E-permission halogeneous-yellow Xenarc electronics 35W, new standard type watts
66142 Osram D1S 4150K 3200lm E-permission halogeneous-yellow Xenarc watts
66050 Osram D2R 4150K 3200lm E-permission halogeneous-yellow Xenarc electronics 35W watts
66052 Osram D1R 4150K 3200lm E-permission halogeneous-yellow Xenarc electronics 35W watts
66053 Osram D1R 4150K 3200lm E-permission halogeneous-yellow Xenarc electronics 35W, new standard type watts
66152 Osram D1R 4150K 3200lm E-permission halogeneous-yellow

85122 Philips D2S 4100K 3200lm E-permission yellow-greenish watts
85122+
(plus) Philips D2S under 4000K 3100lm E-permission yellowish watts
85122CM (color match) Philips D2S 5000K 3100lm E-permission snow-white (a little yellow), very near at the Unbuntpunkt, glass bulb has a breath of blue pass, first-class white (more purely than Ultinon) with permission
85122WX Philips D2S 6000K Ultinon 2400lm pure blue-violet without yellow, bluish color like it in former times with some cars looked white
85122YX Philips D2S 3000K yellow xenon light for fog headlights
85122NX 4100K (only Japanese market), similar to 85122, DOT
85122CX 5000K (only Japanese market), similar to 85122CM DOT
85122SX 5700K (only Japanese market), similar to Osram D-HC
85122FS 6700K (only Japanese market), since 2005 blue esters burners of Philips
85123 Philips D2S 4900K E-permission, and +Plus, yellowish watts coloured intermediate thing between Ultinon comparably with pink note (allegedly special for BMW), with GE's Xensation 5100K burner, but yellow as Color matches (85122CM)

85126 like 85122, but D2R with shielding mask for reflector headlights
85126+ like 85122+, but D2R with shielding mask for reflector headlights
85126CM such as 85122CM, but D2R with shielding mask for reflector headlights 85126WX such as 85122WX, but D2R with shielding mask for reflector headlights 85126YX such as 85122YX, but D2R with shielding mask for reflector headlights 85126NX such as 85122NX, but D2R with shielding mask for reflector headlights 85126CX such as 85122CX, but D2R with shielding mask for reflector headlights 85126SX such as 85122SX, but D2R with shielding mask for reflector headlights 85126FS such as 85122FS, but D2R with shielding mask for reflector headlights
85407 Philips D1S, integrated starter, otherwise like 85122 (the ignition equipment makes only the operating voltage available)
85407+ Philips D1S, integrated starter, otherwise like 85122+
85408 Philips D1R, integrated starter, otherwise like 85122
85408+ Philips D1R, integrated starter, otherwise like 85122+

Monday, April 28, 2008


yawarakai kaze ga hirari aogu
chiisana koto demo kanjitai anata to nara

itsumo nando demo tashikametai
kore kara mo zutto daisuki na
anata no koto

nando mo
Hold me love me kiss me itsu demo
Tell me chose me everyday every night

nando mo
Hold me love me kiss me itsu demo
Tell me chose me everyday every night

kaimono ni yukeba me ga iku no wa
anata ga hoshii to itteta mono dattari

niaisou na fuku wo te ni totte wa
egao ga koborete kyuu ni hazukashiku naru

nando mo
Hold me love me kiss me itsu demo
Tell me chose me everyday every night

nando mo
Hold me love me kiss me itsu demo
Tell me chose me everyday every night

anata wa taiyou watashi wa tsuki
taiyou no egao ga koboreru tabi
tsuki mo kagayaku
ima dewa kangaerarenai
anata no inai basho nante
kore kara mo tsutsumikonde hoshii

Hold me love me kiss me itsu demo
Tell me chose me everyday every night..

Tuesday, April 22, 2008


Ki ni naru noni kikenai
Oyogitsukarete kimi made mukuchi ni naru
Aitai noni mienai nami ni osarete
Mata sukoshi tooku naru
Togirenai you ni Keep it going baby
Onaji kimochi ja nai nara tell me
Muri wa shinai shugi demo
Sukoshi nara shite mitemo ii yo
I wanna be with you now
Futari de distance chijimete
Ima nara maniau kara
We can start over
Hitotsu ni wa narenai
I wanna be with you now
Itsu no hi ka distance mo
Dakishimerareru you ni nareru yo
We can start sooner
Yappari I wanna be with you
Hitokoto de konna ni mo kizutsuku kimi wa
Kodoku wo oshiete kureru
Mamorenai toki keep on trying, baby
Yakusoku toori ja nai kedo trust me
Muri wa shinai shugi demo
Kimi to narashite mitemo ii yo
I wanna be with you now
Futari de distance mitsumete
Ima nara maniau kara
We can start over
Kotoba de tsutaetai
I wanna be with you now
Sono uchi ni distance mo
Dakishimerareru you ni nareru yo
We should stay together
Yappari I need to be with you

All along I was searching for my Lenore,
And the words of Mr. Edgar Allen Poe.
Now I'm sober and nevermore
Will the raven come to bother me at home?

Calling you, calling you home
You-u, calling you, calling you home...

By the door you said you had to go.
Couldn't help me any-any more.
This I saw coming long before,
So I kept on staring out the window.

Calling you, calling you home
You-u, calling you, calling you home...

I am a natural entertainer.
Aren't we all holding pieces of dying ember?
I'm just trying to remember who I can call
Who can I - I - I - I call?

Ohhh! Calling you, calling you

I run a secret propaganda.
Aren't we all hiding pieces of broken anger.
I'm just trying to remember who I can call
That I - I - I can...

Born in a world of opposite attracion,
Or is it or is it a natural conception.
Torn by the arms in the opposite direction,
So is it, or is it a modernist reaction.

Born in a world of opposite attraction,
Or is it or is it a natural conception.
Torn by the arms in the opposite direction,
So is it, or is it a modernist reaction.

Is it like this? Is it always the same?
When a heartache begins, is it like this?
Do you like this? Where you always the same?
Will you come back again? Do you like this?
(Background)Born in a world of opposite attraction,
Torn by the arms in the opposite direction,
Born in a world of opposite attraction,
Torn by the arms in the opposite direction,
So is it, or is it a modernist reaction...

Is it always the same,
And will you come back again?
Do you like this?
Oh, do you like this?

Is it like this? Is it always the same?
If you change the phone numbers, would you tell me?
(Background)Born in a world of opposite attraction,
Or is it or is it a natural conception.
Torn by the arms in the opposite direction,
So is it, or is it a modernist reaction...

Is it like this? Is it always the same?
When a heartache begins, is it like this?
If you like this, will you remember my name?
Will you play it again, if you like this?

Saturday, April 19, 2008


Fall in love, then it ends
I swear: This will be my last heartbreak
Even the cherry blossom trees shaking in the wind,
will bloom one day soon.

The sudden summer rain,
passed by my tears in a quiet stream
A scene so like one from my memories
A summer re-run of a fall drama.

Why do I keep getting done in by the same punch,
and yet still continue to fight?
That's one of life's little mysteries.

Fall in love, give it my everything
I hope: This will be my last heartbreak
Even the cherry blossom trees shaking through the seasons,
will bloom one day soon.

Through the cycling seasons,
my shoes will wear thin.

take it easy,
put the past away someplace else.
I don't think it's so far from here,
this place I've never seen.

get over the endless pain in my heart
I want to be closer to you.
Once around is the beginning again.
always feeling about blindly for the blue sky

Fall in love, then it ends
I swear: Today will be my first good day.
Even the cherry blossom trees shaking in the wind,*
are slowly reaching out a hand to you.

I love you so much, so very much I can't do anything about it.
But this has nothing to do with that.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

U2: From A to Z

A is for Adam Clayton
The English-born bass player and the band's non-Christian who after their rise to fame made the most of being a rock star whether he was stepping out with supermodel Naomi Campbell, getting arrested for possession of hash, posing nude for the cover artwork of Achtung Baby, or missing a Sydney concert on the 1993 Zoo TV tour after going on a bender. He stopped drinking after that.


B is for Bono
The man born Paul Hewson in Dublin on May 10, 1960, and whose stage name - Bono Vox was inspired by a sign over a Dublin hearing-aid shop but eventually shortened. Husband of Ali, father of Elijah, Eve, John and Jordan. Neck-risking rock frontman turned human placard turned rock's most respected statesman. Bender of ears of the planet's most powerful figures. Good cop to Bob Geldolf's bad cop when confronting world leaders about Africa.My gift is that I'm a singer, a songwriter and a performer. I just happened to have learned other skills to protect that gift and those skills seem to suit political activism."

C is for Greg Carroll
The Auckland roadie the band recruited into their crew after first playing here in 1984. He died in Dublin two years later in a motorcycle accident. Bono and drummer Larry Mullen jnr attended his tangi in Wanganui and his death inspired the song One Tree Hill on the Joshua Tree album.


D is for Dublin
The capital of Ireland and city of the band's birth after the four converged on Mount Temple, a multi-denominational co-ed school. The band were granted the freedom of Dublin City in 2000 which, among other privileges, grants them the right to graze sheep on open ground.

E is for Edge
The guitarist born David Evans in London of Welsh parents who shifted the family to Dublin shortly after his birth. The nickname came from the angular shape of his head. God's gift to the beanie and guitar-effects pedal industries. The band's musical conductor. Father of Hollie, Arran, Blue Angel, Sian and Levi from two marriages.

F is for Fly, the
The first single off 1991's Achtung Baby and described by Bono as "the sound offour men chopping down the Joshua Tree"* because of its marked difference to the U2 of the 80s. The song also inspired Bono's the Fly persona on stage complete with leathers and wrap-around shades. Though the lenses lightened up over the years, he was rarely seen again without his sunglasses


G is for God
A figure who looms large in U2 lore - the band almost split after the first album when the Edge and Bono had difficulty reconciling their faith with their chosen rock'n'roll path - and songs. See God Part II from Rattle and Hum, Yaweh from How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb, If God Will Send His Angels from Pop and much of their second album October.

H is for hats
At some point in the mid-80s Bono and the Edge discovered headwear of many varieties as they went from the military chic of their early period to American-inspired dustbowl bohemian. Mullen and Clayton, long possessed of more sensible haircuts, wisely resisted the trend.

I is for Island
The record company set up by Chris Blackwell as a reggae label which before its 1989 sale to Polygram was the largest indie label in the world. This was partly thanks to the Irish band they signed in March 1980 releasing their first single 11 O'Clock Tick Tock shortly after and debut album, Boy in October. See also Q.

J is for Joshua Tree
The globally minded 1987 album which after their Live Aid appearance broke them big worldwide with songs like I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For and Where the Streets Have No Name.

K is for Kanye West
Who is opening for U2 in Auckland. The hip-hop king is one of a long line of seemingly incongruous support acts the band has employed since reaching stadium status. On the Lovetown tour in 1989, they brought along blues veteran B.B. King and his band.

L is for Larry Mullen Jnr
The handsome drummer who put up a notice wanting to find other musicians to form a band (See S below). Has been characterised over the years as U2's voice of caution when the band's experimental side threatened to get away on them. The "jnr" was added when his father started getting his tax bills.

M is for Mullet
The haircut that Bono sported throughout the '80s in many variations. "Forget about a bad-hair day. I was having a bad-hair life. You should never look like you've had your hair ironed. I look at pictures from that period and I am the prince of mullet and the only thing that's keeping that mullet away from pop history is a hat designed for a taller man." See also H.

N is for New Zealand
A place where they've been popular since the release of debut album Boy and which Bono says holds a special place in his heart since he first came here in 1984 and found himself wide awake with jet-leg on the top of One Tree Hill in the middle of the night after meeting some friendly locals in his hotel lobby who gave him an after-dark tiki-tour of Auckland. See also C.

O is for One
The song from Achtung Baby, the 1991 album which might have been an at times noisy, dark and funky reaction to the grandeur of its predecessors but this ballad is possibly their greatest and most misunderstood song.
Bono: "The song is a bit twisted, which is why I could never figure out why people want it at their weddings. I have certainly met 100 people who've had it at their weddings. I tell them, 'Are you mad? It's about splitting up!"'

P is for Pop
The patchy 1997 album embracing all things dancey and electronic and Miami and which spawned the PopMart tour apparently themed on consumerism, though much of U2's fan base simply didn't buy it and it marked an end to the band's dabbles with irony.

Q is for quantity
U2 have sold more than 170 million albums worldwide and won 22 Grammy awards.

R is for Rattle and Hum
The 1988 album and rockumentary created in the wake of the success of The Joshua Tree which had U2 embracing the roots and traditions of American music but largely getting critically savaged for their efforts.

S is for September 25, 1976
The day U2 formed after drummer Mullen put a notice up at Mount Temple school in north Dublin and the members and the fledgling band - which then included Edge's brother Dick Evans - convened in the Mullen family kitchen. Mullen: "There was very little playing, just an awful lot of tuning up. I think we may have attempted to play one song that nobody knew. It was basically a jam that went on all afternoon."

T is for throat problems
Which started affecting Bono's voice in the late '90s and which he feared might be something more serious. It turned out to be a combination of smoking too much and allergies and his full voice returned in time for the recording sessions for 2000's All That You Can't Leave Behind.

U is for U2
Early names included the Larry Mullen band, Feedback, the Hype. They first performed under the U2 banner in March 1978. It was one of the names suggested by Steve Averill, a graphic designer with a Dublin punk rock background who designed the band's first posters and badges. Said Edge of the name: "It was the least bad of the bunch. As time went by we started to like it more and more. And it also separated from us from the Whatevers, you know, the Jam, the Clash ... "

Bono: "I hate the name, by the way. Soon after it caught on, I started realising that it too was an awful pun. That hadn't dawned on me either. You Too. Oh no!"

V is for Vertigo
The band took the tour name from the first track on 2004's album How to Dismantle An Atomic Bomb and which arrives in Auckland having played three continents and in front of 4 million fans, having been postponed from its March dates due to the ongoing illness of the Edge's daughter Sian.

W is for War
The third album of 1983 which truly set the band on their international way with political anthems such as Sunday Bloody Sunday (written about the 1972 Bloody Sunday tragedy when 28 Irish protesters were killed in Northern Ireland by British soldiers) and New Year's Day (inspired by Poland's Solidarity movement).

X is for xylophone
Yes, as well as the Edge's distinctive ringing one-string-at-a-time guitar figure, I Will Follow, U2's first song on their first album Boy - also the first to make an impact outside Ireland and which has been reintroduced into their live set of late - featured the ringing tones of a xylophone. Though some sources say it was a glockenspiel. While the guitar sound was soon to prove influential, there was no immediate upswing for xylophone/glockenspiel players who wanted to rock.

Y is for you too.

See U above.

Z is for Zooropa and Zoo TV
The former was the experimental 1993 album which contained some leftovers from its superior 1991 predecessor Achtung Baby. Zoo TV was the spectacular 1993 tour (the last time U2 played in Auckland) which followed with its themes of celebrity-age information-overload and dressing up without any of those silly hats.

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Master Card Wedding





You got to love this guy...
This is a true story about a recent
wedding that took place at Clemson University .

It was in the local newspaper and even
Jay Leno mentioned it.

It was a huge wedding with about 300 guests.

After the wedding, at the reception, the groom got up on stage
with a microphone to talk to the crowd.
He said he wanted to thank
everyone for coming, many from
long distances, to support them
at their wedding.

He especiall y wanted to thank the bride's and his family
and to thank his new father-in-law for providing such a lavish reception.

As a token of his deep appreciation
he said he wanted to give everyone
a special gift just from him.

So taped to the bottom of
everyone's chair, including the wedding party was an envelope.

He said this was his gift to
everyone, and asked them to
open their envelope.


Inside each manila envelope was an 8x10 glossy

of his bride having sex with the best man.

The groom had gotten suspicious
of them weeks earlier and had
hired a private detective to tail
them.

After just standing there, just watching the guests' reactions
for a couple of minutes, he
turned to the best man and
said, 'F---you!' Then he turned
to his bride and said, 'F--- you!'

Then he turned to the
dumbfounded crowd and said,
'I'm outta here.'

He had the marriage annulled
first thing in the morning.

While most people would have canceled the wedding
immediately after finding out
about the affair, this
guy goes through with the
charade, as if nothing were wrong.

His revenge--making the bride's parents pay over $32,000 for a
300-guest wedding and reception, and best of all, trashing the
bride's and best man's reputations
in front of 300 friends and family members.

This guy has balls the size of church bells.

Do you think we might get a MasterCard 'priceless'
commercial out of this?

Elegant wedding reception
for 300 family members and
friends: $32,000.

Wedding photographs commemorating the Occasion: $3,000

Deluxe two-week
honeymoon accommodations in Maui : $8,500.

The look on everyone's face
when they see the 8x10 glossy
of the bride humping the best man: Priceless.

There are some things money
can't buy, for everything else
there's MASTERCARD


A Mastercard Wedding

'Life isn't like a bowl
of cherries or peaches,

it's more like a jar of Jalapenos--
what you do today,
might burn your ass tomorrow......'

Friday, April 04, 2008


I stay up every sleeping hour
Pulling the flowers from your face
Consider me gone until I leave
Pretending to understand makes you tired and lonely
All I want is to hear you sing- but I cut my ears and sold them for vanity
I try to choose my words carefully- I don’t want to end up lost in the morning

Please understand that I don’t have any experience in being me
Last night I think I said too much, I can tell by the hesitation in your dreams
i stay up every dreaming hour tasting the night as it sinks in deep
Every whisper and every laugh when you look at me


I’m dreaming of tomorrow and all it can be but I know that you’re not like me
But consider me gone as I dream
I try to choose my words carefully in the hope you find me tonight

Please understand I don’t have any intention of being me
Please understand I never had any intention of giving you lost treasures
I cherish and ponder why you believed in me
Consider me gone until I leave and you can sleep when I’m dead